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i used to think that my mum is biased towards me. i used to think that my mum looked down on me since my results aint any better than my brother. i used to think that i'm just a useless human being that can't be help. mistakes after mistakes came by and it seems that i never learnt my lesson. the pressure was really high. so much so, that i was really defeated then. i used to think that suicidal is the only solution. but thank goodness! i'm sure god's the one who held me back. (: true enough, praying helps!
soon, i realised things were not the way it is. i'm just making assumptions. in one occasion, mummy came and sat beside my bed to explain things clearly. she said she loves me for who i am. and she never make any comparison. its just me, who is making assumptions and its just me, who is over sensitive. that day onwards, i kept telling myself that i should just stop making assumptions, and that i should just carry on with life. i, myself should know whats right and whats wrong for me. i made a vow to myself: "never let mistakes repeat itself again." well, in order to avoid such mistakes is never easy. but i'm really glad, that i overcame the obstacles soon after! (:
throughout my past journey, its never easy. and its never perfect. however, wad is past is past. we should just leave it behind and look forward to now and the next few stages. these three years, i'm still trying to erase off those bad memories from my mind. but, its not totally 100%.
however, i thank god for sending the people, especially my family into my life! they were the ones who coloured my life and make me for who i am today!! (:
okay, enough of the emo emo stuffs. i'm a happy adult noww! i'm all blessed noww! (: (: (:
my MR.BEAN! =)
